One more thing

Something else that I am trying to come to terms with is that losing weight and being healthy and changing my lifestyle isn't going to happen over night. When people diet they expect results right away but those results will quickly fade as burn out happens or you stop dieting and go back to your old habits. I want to change my habits permanently and I'm trying to accept that it is going to be a process. I might not be bikini ready by the time summer roles around, and that's ok. Hopefully I will be healthier and more fit by then and I can be proud of my accomplishments and resolve. And hopefully that will also reflect on the scale and my pant size, but the number on the scale isn't the only indicator of success. If I can run faster and further, and work out harder and exercise self discipline and moderation around food, then I will have found success as well. I need to keep those ideas in mind more and focus less on the results on the scale.