The plan for the next week

So I've definitely fallen off the wagon this week. I haven't been terrible with what I eat, but I definitely haven't been good. I just need to recommit myself to dieting, but right now it's really difficult because the next month I've got 2 or 3 trips planned that will make it difficult to stick closely to a diet. But as I am writing this, I feel like that is just a big huge excuse and a stupid reason for me not to try.

Dieting isn't something you just do for a short period of time, it's a real life style change. Changing your habits, changing the relationship with food. My ultimate goal is to come to the point where I only eat when I'm hungry (not because I'm bored or stressed) and I eat until I'm satisfied (not stuffed to the limit because it tasted so good). There is definitely a lot I need to work on.

Sometimes I feel like I eat like a little child who doesn't know good nutrition over bad. It's just what's yummy and what I want. But I do know that eating lots of dessert (like I did tonight at the wedding reception I went to) is bad for you, not to mention that I feel awful when I do. Somehow in my mind I am able to convince myself that it doesn't matter. In my head I tell myself "Might as well have another one. It tastes good and you know you want it. Just give up and stuff your face." And then after the pig out, I resolve in my mind that I will do better tomorrow. The not so funny thing, is that tomorrow never comes. The next day I just fall back into my mental thought of surrendering my health for my cravings.

I need to put up more of a fight. I need to really dig my heals in and say to myself, "I choose to be healthy!" and then be able to walk away feeling good about that decision, instead of being disappointed in the treat that I am missing out on.

Let me get back to my main reason in starting this blog entry. I want to come up with a plan for the next week that I can commit myself to sticking with. For this next week I'm not going to have any desserts. I pigged out tonight and my body needs a break from the sugar. Also, I'm going to be more careful about my portions that I give myself. Especially at dinner.

And of course I'm going to exercise this week. My goal is to work out 4 times this week at least. I should have the time to do it this week because Cliff is going to be busy with his last week of class. My other biggest determinant from working out is being so tired! Calvin has been waking up a lot earlier than normal but I'm still going to bed after midnight, and it's starting to catch up with me. This week I want to go to bed before 11 every night.

So to summarize my plan for the week:

• No desserts
• Have normal portions
• Work out 4+ times
• Go to bed before 11

Wish me luck!

Tomorrow's another day...

Today has not been a good day for me and food. Calvin woke up at 6:15 this morning (he usually gets up at 7:30), and I went to bed pretty late last night, so I was really tired all day today, and that makes me grumpy. That combination of feelings made for the desire to just stuff my face, and like I mentioned in the last post, I'm kind of losing steam to keep eating healthy. So today was pretty much a lost cause. I think by around 6:45 this morning I knew I wasn't going to make it through the day.

But tomorrow is another day. I really need to get back on track and do this. So my resolve tomorrow is to eat WAY better than today, and I will go running tomorrow night...possibly more depending on my sleepiness (to be determined tomorrow morning).

The plan for tomorrow's meals: Breakfast--Cheerios and Blueberries.  Lunch--salad with chicken.  Snack--yogurt and fruit. Dinner--I'm thinking spaghetti right now, but that could change by tomorrow.

Well fingers are crossed for tomorrow!

So here's the deal

The total deal: Back in March I started getting serious about losing weight and getting into shape. And five months later I am less than five pounds away from my goal weight that I've had since high school and have never been able to reach. This is by far the closest I've ever gotten and I'm determined to make it.

My goal weight is 135. Right now I'm at 139.5. Less than five pounds to go!! But you know what they say, the last 5 are always the hardest. And I would have to agree with 'they.' I feel so close to my goal and yet so far away! I'm definitely lacking the motivation to keep eating healthy. Exercising isn't so much a problem but I know I need to be doing both if I'm gonna get to where I want to be.

I've seen some other people who have blogs about becoming fit and losing weight, and I decided I would try it out too. We'll see if this helps me stay motivated. And if anyone who is reading this has helpful advice or yummy healthy (and simple) recipes that they want to share, PLEASE DO! I'm always open to new suggestions and ideas.

Well I could go on, but then I might not have anything else to write about, so I guess I'll just save the rest for later.